the upset feeling still cant return to normal

im sure that every couple loathe argument,right?

but then it is unavoidable.

got some quarrel between us today

actually not at all,

just...hmmp you know what?

its all about my stupit shit temper.

yea. the grumpy vien reappeared..

i hurted him w/ lotza extremely rude words

i scolded and shouted at him very loudly.

but he kept quite in the whole course and just let me be

and yet he asked me some questions that i dont know whether to laugh or to mad.

he says :

'sweetie,what happened to you today?

am i spoke amiss to you?are you hungry now?

i'll buy your favourite mcdeluxe and sundae cone for you so just wait for me kay?

or just because of your menstrual period makes you get angry?

i am so sorry even i dont know the reason you get mad to me but just forgive me okay?

come on,i pull my ears as usual punishment okay?'

he spoke like this to me w/ blandness mode.

and i was like

huh? sweating*..

perhaps lahh,maybe due to my period or what?

it makes me get mad eazily!shit*

actually,thr was just my problem and you have nothing wrong.

everytime's argument thrs not your fault just my temper problem

i still cant reform myself

i still let it control my whole mood

you know what?

i hate myself sometimes.

i felt that im so bad and im the worst girlfriend in this world.

obviously yes :*(

he loving me more than anything

he used to stay away from the things and peoples that i disliked

he tried his best to achieve the perfect boyfriend that i desired and all.

but lets see how i treated him? how bad?

thats why i hate myself so much.

im scared. scared that he will feel exhausted one day.

'if someday you decide to let go,

i'll hold you more and more tightly and i wont let you go eazily.

even if you dont love me anymore but i'll still wont give up our relationship

because it was so hard to obtained.'

these are what you told me and i wont forget.

im trying to cherish you

trying to treat you nice than previous.

hopefully wish that i can make it pray hard*

...

it is 2.37am now.

im still here to blog huh?

yawning*

going to stop here

lastly end up my post w/ this song.

my favourite

westlife-i dont wanna fight

have a sweet dream,people!

xoxo